my+poems

by: tabatha //**Some sell themselves for love Some give their lives to pleasure or some power from above. If my grandchildren wonder what I did with my life I'll say I sold it for a poem.**
 * //selling lives //**
 * //Some sell themselves for money//**

By: Tabatha **// //**My life with you... what is there to explain.... the only reason i had life was because of you... the only reason i woke up every morning was because of you... all this because i loved you... i never really knew or considered it love... i really didnt even know what love was... or better yet what it meant.. i had never liked someone so much.. could never explain my feelings still cant ... now that were over .. well i guess i can only say one thing you were truly my first love... and i will always have a spot in my heart for you... But did you __really__  love me too? **
 * First Love

**The Day I Saw My Lady Cry by: tabatha** // **She stood there with her torch held high To watch planes falling from the sky As silver bullets ripped apart The center of her loving heart With disregard for sanity In senseless act of lunacy She saw her children fall and die The day I saw my lady cry.

I LIFT MY LAMP … so reads her plaque Just miles from terrorist attack Her open doors now violated By pure evil orchestrated Hounds of Hell have been released And God must rise to kill the Beast. I saw her head drop, shaking "Why?" The day I saw my lady cry.

Her tears will bring on bitter rain Unleashing winds of hurricane To circle globe in whirlwind force Uncovering evil at its source Then seek exacting recompense From those who prey on innocents. They'll not forget, as time goes by, The day they made my lady cry.**  End Of Innocence by: tabatha Secrets, secrets Lies, lies She sits in her room, and cries and cries. There's no more trust In this girl's heart. She finally found out That life isn't perfect. She lived in dreams, As children often do. But she crawled out Into the world everyone knew. Things that once were. Happiness once known; The truth of it all To her was shown. Her little heart Will never trust again. She'll never know A real true friend. No more trust, For no more lies. She'll sit in her room And cry and cry

**//I love you by: tabatha I never really knew you You were just another friend But when I got to know you, I let my heart unbend. I couldn't help past memories that would only make me cry I had to forget my first love and give love another try So I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go I love you more than anyone I just had to let you know And if you ever wonder why I don't know what I'll say But I'll never stop loving you each and every day My feelings for you will never change Just know my feelings are true Just remember one thing and that is: I Love You!//** 

By: tabatha I was thinking of us last night And the times we shared How good we were But now we are apart Yet we still have our Dreams For in our Dreams we are together Holding hands on the beach Talking all night under the silver moon Kissing and holding each other tight Dreams For no matter the distance Or the obstacle I will always belong to you For we are meant for each other if not in reality, than in our Dreams.
 * //<span style="font-size: 120%; color: #00ffe0; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; background-color: #000000;">Our Dreams

<span style="font-size: 120%; color: #f5b80f; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; background-color: #b93737;">When You Love by: tabatha //** <span style="font-size: 120%; color: #f5b80f; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; background-color: #b93737;">When you love someone so deep inside, It seems like it's so easy to hide. You've loved him for so very long, You would think he could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray, That he would always stay this way. He treated you like you should be treated, You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true, And then one day it was all so blue. He started putting you down and it hurt, You thought all you were to him was dirt.

He started ignoring you and you wondered why, All you wanted to do was curl up and die. You thought your relationship would never end, But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night he was so sweet to you, You thought all those things were maybe untrue, Two days later he was back the same, You thought you were the one to blame.

He thought the relationship was getting too serious And that you had become a little too curious. By this time you knew it wouldn't last, All the nice things he said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry him some day, But this time God wanted to get his way. You wanted things back how they were before, But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock, You heard the news and it wasn't a shock. You knew this was going to happen soon, As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon. <span style="font-size: 80%; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> <span style="font-size: 140%; color: #f609dd; font-family: Georgia, serif;">Mixed Emotions By: Tabatha I feel so diffident in your presence, Your confident playfulness drips all over me You played with me like a little boy Would play. . . You have spiraled my emotions I sit here speechless. . . First you smelled my hair. I looked at your little soft body Your innocence concealed by others But blaring loud in my ears as the 80's music further enticed my need for summer love Your weariness shows in your dark Puppy eyes. . . your life, your experience your hurt, carefully put away. I reach out to you To embrace you, to let you know I care More than anyone ever could. I touch your soft skin. Our bodies fit perfectly as we embrace Like two perfectly crafted puzzle pieces. If only I could kiss you passionately, Without hesitation. Without any of the thoughts of entangled relationships. Our hearts both contain so much complexity Our pasts sickly warped. . . But the noise of the silent summer Molds our problems into one shared love. It seems that to you it is all so superficial, and it saddens me to know I love you from the deepest hole in my Heart. You are beautiful, innocent, my little Boy. We long to play, frolic, and never grow up. Yet we are drawn together by our soft lips craving for fulfillment. Longing to be held and loved. . . But do you Really feel more, do you hold that capacity to love As deeply as I do? . . . No you are just a little boy, but I am Just as innocent, so maybe you do love me As I love you. Your summer love. I crave your Innocence. Your pillow lips still linger on my neck You have made me feel so giggly and bubbly inside Perhaps I don't have to grow up. Perhaps this hope That you have given me can last a few months, or until we see each other once again. I feel so happy, so passionate, so optimistic. How could you do that to me? What An incredible aura you give off. But perhaps I interpret your Flirtatious gestures as more than they are. But you kept me to yourself. You took authority and told the swarming boys around me to leave me alone. . . For I belonged to you That's what you said. Your little hand dangled in the air, waiting for me to come to your side. Yes, you indicated your need for me, but there is that chance that you wish for something in the shallow waters. But whatever my contortions of your feelings may be, you've allowed me to dream of love once again. But the fear of hurt lies in the background, as I know You aren't strong, confusion lurks in your soft eyes. Despite your problems, I love you and you have made me feel truly overwhelmed. Truly happy. Truly full of Wholeness and love. Let's snuggle. Smile with me Tickle me and make me Giggle! <span style="font-size: 90%; color: #f609dd; font-family: Georgia, serif;"> <span style="font-size: 80%; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">

By: Tabatha I stare at you across the room I see your warming face I try to see the inside you hide Your feelings I try to embrace
 * //<span style="color: #5cfabc; font-family: Tahoma, Geneva, sans-serif; background-color: #a8489a;">You're Not There

I realize as I look at you As I just sit and stare I can see you perfectly clear But for some reason you're not there

I see your eyes, I see your face But yet I can not see Your loving inside that you had I can't see your personality

I realize how much that you have changed How you don't seem to care I stare at you across the room But yet you are not there //**

By: Tabatha I have feelings of love for the guy I see. Does he love me too, what does he think of me?
 * //<span style="font-size: 130%; color: #230fd2; font-family: 'Lucida Console', Monaco, monospace; background-color: #ee1b1b;">Feelings Of Love

I wish I could tell him he makes me whole, but I'm afraid to say what's deep in my soul.

I don't want to lose him, for I would be alone, and some days I just can't wait to hear his voice on the phone.

He does certain things to make me feel loved, some days he wants to be alone and my heart is shoved.

I want to feel as though I am his safeguard, the one he can come to when things get hard.

I will always be there to help him along, and before we met I wasn't as strong.

I wish I could tell him what I feel inside, but I'm afraid of what he'll say, how he'll act on the outside. //**

By: tabatha There you sit smiling And it's you I watch wanting But you don't even know What it is you do to me So I keep on watching and wanting as I bleed
 * //<span style="color: #3de029; font-family: 'Palatino Linotype', 'Book Antiqua', Palatino, serif;">What you do to me

Every time I look at you Every time I talk to you Every time I smell you My heart continues melting And I am forever dreaming

Whenever you pass me by Whenever you catch my eye I feel like I want to cry Because of what it is you do to me

Your eyes gleaming And your lips pleading And your hands exploring While my heart remains bleeding

Every time you look at me I wonder what it is you see Every time you talk to me And I hear that deep sexy voice My knees get weak My stomach flutters My chest collapses My neck hairs tingle And I stop breathing Just in that moment in time When you do what it is you do to me

As I sit here yearning I imagine you sleeping And I want you to hold me endlessly Forever in your arms for eternity I'll continue dreaming As long as you are living breathing being //**

By: Tabatha //**
 * //<span style="font-size: 150%; color: #000000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Helvetica, sans-serif; background-color: #ffffff;">MY Everything

and my night skies stary.
 * //<span style="font-size: 150%; color: #000000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Helvetica, sans-serif; background-color: #ffffff;">You are what makes my days sunny

You are what makes heart beat and my head spin.

You make my world turn and my fears burn.

You give me strength when i am weak. You give warmth when i am cold.

You give me courage when i am scared. you give me guidence when i am lost.

you give me love when we are in a world with so little left to give. You are what completes me,

For you are my everything!!! <span style="font-size: 150%; color: #290abd; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Helvetica, sans-serif; background-color: #53de3b;"> //**

**//God it Hurts By: Tabatha I said 'God it hurts' And God said 'I Know' I said 'God I cry alot' And God said 'That's why I gave you tears' I said 'God I get so depressed' And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine' I said god I feel Alone' And god said 'That's why I gave you loved ones' I said 'god my loved one is dead' And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross' I said God 'Where are they? ' And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light. I said 'God it hurts' And God said 'I know'//**

**// ONLY BELIEVE By: Tabatha Has that trial in your life been going on so long That everything in you screams, "This is so wrong."

You can't understand, it seems God is far away As with tears you cry out to Him everyday,

If you read God's Word His truth you will see That He has a job for you and a job for me,

ONLY BELIEVE! is what He has to say At His feet this problem you must lay,

In His time and in His way An answer to your problem will be there one day,

Keep on believing, don't lose hope He'll give you His grace enabling you to cope,

Keep your eyes on Him as to to Him you cleave He has promised He will never forsake you or leave,

Give Him time to work it all out The devil just wants you to worry and doubt,

Praising Him is one thing He's looking for To bless you is what He has in store,

So no matter what, even when you don't understand ONLY BELIEVE! that's what moves His hand. //**

**//LIFE By Tabatha//** **// To comfort those that are grieving

Sometimes the sun shines ever so bright. But inside there’s clouds as dark as the night. Thank you Lord you’re my all in all. You calm me so peacefully when there is a squall.

You wipe my tears and make it like day. You let hope shine bright when there’s trouble at bay. You made life in me when no one else could You’re my rock and my stronghold where I have stood I will stand in your gates when they open wide Thank you Lord for being by my side.

When death finally comes and knocks on my gate I will gladly accept I’ll no longer wait. I’ll open my eyes and see your sweet face. And marvel at your amazing Grace.

Down here there are those who will mourn and cry But I cannot wait till the time goes by, A time it may seem before you see me again, But when I see you I’ll shout hallelujah amen!

Dear friends here on earth, please do not grieve, Now is the time for me to Leave It may seem sad and dreary at times But know that the gift of life is mine For him have I lived, and to him I will run My time here on earth is finally done.

As I dance down those streets shining with gold I’ll think of you God and what I’ve been told I’ll know that my faith was the faith that was true And I’ll know that you did what you said you’d do. I’ll sing with the angels and dance with you Lord For I have been saved from the fiery sword. //**

By: Tabatha Rejection, hurt, and pain They’ve left such a stain You suddenly feel like you’ll never love again You gave it your all You tried to stand tall But then there it was, the inevitable fall Your heart is so torn; your mind is so worn From the thoughts of despair that are continuously born So many feelings of doubt you just have to shout, “Where are you, my Lord? Please, bring me out!” My child I am here I told you never to fear ‘Cause I’ll dry every tear As for your hurt and your pain, your rejection stain The feelings you have that you’ll never love again Reveal them to Me, the One who died on Calvary Caused the blind man to see Cured an advanced case of leprosy See, “when you cast all your cares upon Me” That alone will set you free Those feelings of hurt and pain Are turned into victories gained And now you’re ready to walk in the light Although it’s still midnight But remember, “these light afflictions are but for a moment” It’s an opportunity for your atonement ‘Cause I already own it, your problem that is Now your deliverance has come Your victory’s been won Your head is up high; your tears are all dry Your pains and your stains can now be proclaimed As broken bondage chains! For I reign as the Lord God “Thy staff and thy rod”; “Who preparest a table” For I alone am able To do the divine for those whom I call mine! When I called you out of darkness I told you, “I got this!” So go and be free Tell the world about me Tell of how I brought you out and gave you a victorious shout Now that’s somethin’ to talk about! //**
 * // JOURNEY TO FREEDOM

By: Tabatha The shadows that hid my soul, Have all but disappeared. Where have they gone I wonder? That darkness I once feared.
 * // SHADOWS

In the calm between the storms, Rich light comes piercing through. The warmth upon my cheeks, My sky turns black to blue.

Like a mirage in the desert, Of which cause my eyes to squint. I wonder about this new light, Could it truly be heaven sent?

It penetrates my inside depths, Like the dew on a morning lawn, Should I still fear the darkness? While the shadows seem surely gone.

As the days pass one by one, The shadows a memory of past. Your light shines brightly now, Mike, I've found youat last. //** <span style="font-size: 80%; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> <span style="font-size: 140%; color: #ff05da; font-family: 'Comic Sans MS', cursive; background-color: #1b1df8;"> <span style="font-size: 80%; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">**//<span style="font-size: 140%; color: #f410b5; font-family: 'Comic Sans MS', cursive; background-color: #260ced;">Pain By: Tabatha Take a knife and cut me up if you hate me you wont stop make me feel the pain within as your slitting through my skin makes me weaker as i bleed for your mercy make me plead hear me screaming in the dark as you leave your painful mark blood is running down my face as my beauty you erase try to cut through every vein on your shirt you've left a stain i wish you knew i didnt care if you hurt me everywhere you can slit my skin apart you cant cut through my broken heart //**